Thursday, February 7, 2013

call me if you need anything


In the bleak winter of emotion we find ourselves in as a family, there have been some wonderful moments. Moments where I am reminded that I am loved and cherished. I have some amazing friends.


Darling Meg turning up with with a DVD for the kiddies and "love" blocks because she loves me and can't think of what else to do.


Sweet Liv, the secret blog lurker giving me a package on Sunday at church. With yarn! Soft amazing yarn. This was so thoughtful (I cried)


And beautiful Gail, struggling with her own battles yet seeing me in mine. Knowing my Starbucks-crush and giving the perfect time out gift.

These mean so much to me as the words that I hear the most are "Call me if you need anything." And without being unkind I can't do anything with those words. The reality is that by the time I have had a million conversations about my parents, each weighing me down as I am faced again with their mortality, looked after my family, organised things I did not think of organising for many years and tried to work, the last thing I have energy for is to contact someone with a request.

What I need and what anybody needs in the same boat, is someone to do something specific. Sometimes I am not sure quite what I need either and something is always better than nothing. So a meal is good, a bunch of flowers, a text to say I am praying for you or I thought of you today. A facebook message to say I love you...

An amazing example is the day we moved. I was exhausted. Simoney rang (and rang a few times) to see what she could do. And eventually suggested lunch. I had not even given lunch a thought and we were between houses and packed up. She arrived with an abundance of food, disposable cutlery and crockery, her own knives and a cutting board and drink (with disposable glasses). I felt so loved.

Oh friends, to be honest this journey is bigger than what we can cope with. My Dad's cancer is worse than my Mom's and the prognosis is bad. Seriously bad. My Mom's big sister arrives in a week and I can't wait. She's a hospice (terminally ill) nurse so will help us prepare mentally, emotionally and physically.

I know my God is in this. We truly trust him. It's just that the woods are awfully dark right now and it's a little scary.

P.S. Yes that's a new blog sitting on my profile waiting for me to find time to complete it. It's getting so many page views which is stressing me out. It's not ready and I need to launch it. So ignore it for now (pretty please)


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15 comments:

Leonie said...

How wonderful to have such awesome friends! Hope you find comfort support and solace during this time. xx

Cat said...

Huge hugs to you my darling sweet friend
I hope to see you tomorrow x

Monica Williams said...

Oh Sammy, I'm so sorry to hear this. Much love and prayers to you and your family. God bless good friendships though hey? xx

Meghan at MNM's said...

Oh Sammy I wish I wasn't at the other end of the island!!! You have been in my prayers and thoughts constantly lately darling girl, both you and your lovely sister and your families. Please know that I am sending virtual hugs your way, with a real one in April (I hope) xx

Lisa said...

You and your family are in my prayers x

Miriam said...

I am reminded of a verse I (hope) I sent you when you first had the news about your mama about Him being a hiding place for you. That's what I am praying for you right now a strong and secure anchor in the swirling mess of it all xxxx love to you beautiful woman xxxx

jacksta said...

(((hugs)))

Tartankiwi said...

I really recognise what you're saying. Its the people who take initiative and do something (no matter how small) who make the biggest differences!
Thinking of you and your family at this difficult time and glad that you have such caring people around you.
Hugs J x

Simoney said...

Oh Sammy, I hadn't heard that news about your dad :(

PLEASE TXT ME your new phone number and address so i can DO SOMETHING.

Love you SO MUCH.
xx

Leonie said...

Oh Sammy, I wish I was closer too so I could do something practical to help you out.

Much love and prayers for you and your precious family
x

mountain mama said...

praying for you!

Hootnz said...

Just been catching up....big hugs to you Sammy xxx

Elizabeth said...

Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful to see you the other day... and meet the gorgeous Blossom!

Was meant to get a card for you, but ran out of time :-(.

Sending loads of love and hugs and prayers your way though sweetie - wish there was more we could do here.

Gail said...

love you friend. Keep your eyes on Jesus. xx

Neetz said...

Exactly what Gail said....
and to get us through my Dads prognosis etc, we found that when we were really deep in that pit of grief, we would grab the guitar or keyboard and just worship.... keep worshipping until our eyes were on the Lord and we could feel him with us.... we couldn't be consumed with sadness/grief when we were worshipping/praising the Lord. It's hard but it works!! Much love and stregth and comfort to you..............in this most dreadful of times xxx

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