Saturday, February 2, 2013

back


Somewhere in the last month or five (or longer) I lost my Dad. He slowly became grumpy and belligerent. He grew intolerant and could not be with us for longer than 5 minutes before becoming bored. I can't even put my finger on when it started.

Last night I sat in the high dependency unit with my Dad and realised he's back. In the dim light surrounded by beeps and alarms and murmurs, I found him.

I held his hand and talked. I cried with relief and he patted my hand and told me "Not to worry, my sausage." I poured out my heart and he thanked me for sharing. He listened and talked and made sense. Oh, he made delightful sense.

The tragedy of all of this is that my Dad is one of the most intelligent people I have ever known. He has a string of degrees and knows things I will never know. The tumors were stripping that away and it was hard to see. His intelligence was dulled.

But he's back! Within hours of the surgery my sparkly, bright Dad is back. The one who makes plans and thinks streets ahead of anyone else. The one who thinks I am fantastic and tells me he's proud of me. My Dad. He's back.



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15 comments:

Lyns said...

So happy for you. He certainly has a sparkle in his eye and a lovely smile x

Tartankiwi said...

Oh Sammy, what a wonderful wonderful post. So glad that you got your dad back and love the smiling photo at the end.
Here's wishing for a full and speedy recovery. Sending my love to you and your family.

Sarah said...

Wahoo! Wow that is something to be grateful for!!!

Miriam said...

sammy what a time you're having. SO glad your dad is back xxxx

Simoney said...

Oh wow, that's wonderful Sammy!!
xxx

PaisleyJade said...

So happy!

remaliah said...

That's amazing! What a gift in such a heart-wrenching time!

Leonie said...

beautiful Sammy, he has a beautiful smile!

Widge said...

Yippie!!!
xxxx

Cat said...

Sammy my love - during my summer break and bloggy break I've missed all these posts
Big HUGE MASSIVE love to you and your family
xxx

Rachel Osborne said...

Totally missed all this, so so sorry you are going through this, but look at his SMILE! I can see where you get it from! Sending you love and strength and prayers xx

Cat said...

what a light he is!
so happy for you

love and light

Leonie said...

Yay yay yay!!! Awesome news and wonderful bright smile - i am sure your hearts are brimming with joy and gratitude. Praise be! So happy for you all, keep smiling xx

Gail said...

Treasure these and that moment of realisation that HE is back.
Love his smile.x

Neetz said...

Lovely x

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