Back then

I was looking through photos today and came across this one. I don't remember even seeing it before but when I looked at it I was transported back to that moment. The sights, sounds, smells and feelings of that particular time and space.

This was taken at Rupi's baby shower in November 2008. Rupi was 19 days old. I had been his Mama informally for 12 days and legally for 7 days.

I remember the feeling of utter relief, of unbelievable joy and being overwhelmed at how much love I felt for this little boy. I sat in a corner and for a brief moment looked out at the room. There were so many people sharing our joy. So many people who had prayed and believed and wept with us. And finally at that moment, everyone celebrated.

Here I am, a brand new Mama. With my son of vision held close. So good.