Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Kyros time

We have just returned from an incredible conference. It was a gathering of the pastors and senior leaders of our movement. We were invited as we are Kingdom Builders (people who believe a primary purpose of their lives is to resource the kingdom and it's extension). It's such a honour to be there.

Last year at the conference we were smashed emotionally. Utterly devastated. We had just had our first adoption attempt fail which had followed the third and final IVF cycle. We had nowhere to go and no hope at all.

On the last day I found myself in conversation with the leader of our movement, a man who is one of my heroes. He was so encouraging and just comforted us. (He also told me to create a platform for my story- hence the blog!!!)

Later he asked if we would like prayer from everybody. We leapt at the opportunity and this gathering of incredible spiritual giants prayed for us. Prayed for a baby.

It was "impossible" and our year just got darker when my Da (my father-in-law died at the end of June) But the darkest hour is always just before the dawn. Little did we know that when that group of pastors and leaders prayed for us, our son was already conceived.

The miracle was on it's way.

I was desperate to be there this year. Now I know why. It was the completion and sealing of something in me. How is it possible that 12 months after we were utterly devastated and childless with no hope of breakthrough, I walk into the same place with a 5 month old son?

In our natural Chronos sequential time it makes no sense. It just does not add up. It cannot add up.

But God is outside our timing. He sees the beginning from the end and operates in Kyros time. I never ever thought in my wildest dreams last April that I would walk the same hotel and grounds, talk to the same people..... with a 5 month old child.

Our Winter has ended and Spring is here. I rejoiced as I spent time with these people. Each moment was a revelation of His goodness to me. And it was so humbling to see the joy on other's faces as they saw the miracle child. This is a victory for the church, not just for us.

God came through. I am not forsaken.

Let me add.

If He did it for me, He will and can and longs to do it for you.

I am not very special. I am an ordinary girl who struggles to live for her God. Who has great bouts of doing quiet times and droughts where sometimes quiet times don't happen. I did not DO anything to receive this miracle. I am not more holy than you.

If He did it for me, He will do it for you. I pray that you are encouraged. This is more than I dreamed or dared to hope for.
He will do it for you too.

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GB said...

Amazing testimony Sammy! Our God is just so AWESOME. Your journey to this point just blows me away! Thanks so much for sharing.

Tanner's said...

Sammy I love this post! It brings such encouragement to my heart! Kevin and I also are very Kingdom minded and you are right- it was GOD'S timing, I hold onto that with my whole heart! Thank you!

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