Certainty

I woke up this morning with the thought that my God is my certainty. The word was in my head when I woke up. He is my certainty.

In this IVF cycle there is no certainty. The general thought is that if you need to use IVF you will fall pregnant. We seem to sometimes have an unshakable belief in medical science. But there's no certainty with IVF any more than there is with "normal" pregnancy. It's a miracle.

That was one of the things my donor came to realise. This is not certain. There is no guarantee of pregnancy and that was hard for her.

My God is my certainty. He is the same now as on the other side of all of this. He was the same yesterday, is the same today and will be the same tomorrow. He is my certainty.

Worst case and best case, he is the same. None of us will be the same the other side of this. We will be either overjoyed or dealing with disappointment. But God will be the same.

And that is of tremendous comfort and security. We have learned over the last few years how little of life is certain. But He is certain. And because He does not change, we will be ok, either way.

All things change, but He does not. So we can safely put our trust in the Rock, our Redeemer. He keeps us safe, high above the stormy waters, above where no enemy can reach us.

And that is good.

So is this face. It fills my heart with joy.